I dread the day that I shall be forced to write my masters thesis. And now that day is finally at hand.
After the long hiatus when I had fulfilled all academic requirements and hurdled the comprehensive examinations, I could no longer escape the dreaded last sacrifice in order to claim a graduate degree.
I had been handed an ultimatum: either to write and defend now and hopefully receive my degree next year or just waste away all those years of academic toil and hard work. Indeed, the alternative is much less palatable than the actual task already within my reach.
So, I will research, write, and defend my thesis.
But what will I write about? What earthshaking topic of academic breakthrough should I zero in? What matter of public interest or public service must I expound on? These are the questions that continuously run through my mind as I try to discern and decide the kind of topic that is worth exploring in a thesis.
The friend who prodded me to write my thesis told me that a thesis adviser is very handy at this stage because the adviser will give the direction and guidance, the needed boost of confidence, and the pertinent materials for the candidate to really be able to organize all accumulated knowledge and write that all-important thesis that will be the basis for that much-needed degree.
Oh, the things and travails we go through to acquire an education!
Yet, how frustrating it is to see all these young, bright people squandering their time and youth in mindless, numbing computer and video games when they can instead indulge in more mind stimulating and inspiring world of learning.
Ah, but that is the essence of youth: to squander now and later, in adulthood, to regret what had been, thereby, with a liberal coat of wisdom, imploring for another chance to prove oneself.
Perhaps, this is the reason why at 41, I am finally realizing that life is indeed short and instead of dreading the task of writing that damn (pardon my expletive) thesis, I am facing this head on with the fervent hope that I come out of this a much learned woman with a diploma in hand.
Hey, this is definitely much better than watching my favorite telenovelas and sineseryes every night.
Damn.